I think you deserve an explanation about why I chose you, thing is you chose me! (well I would like to think that way) If you can Remember that orientation day in campus hall? You on the first floor, while I was going to the 3rd floor you asked from me which level and what room, oddly I still remember that because of you. I don’t know it is a gift or a curse but I can read people, up to a level though I can’t read minds if you wondering! And I did notice some things in you, you have good qualities good thinking, mad thinking, best of all you have a good heart (even you have completely mad thinking!) those things (and few other things) led me to believe that you are “the one”, your physical appearance is not on this list, truth to be told, you’re not the prettiest girl I’ve ever saw, I don’t want to lie to you! You so beautiful inside and that’s what important to me.
If you can remember that day I ask you out, I still have that memories like pictures, you were scratching that band of your side bag, wondering what to say (I think), even you gave me the “no” answer, I saw you struggling inside! I don’t know how you feel about it, but I learned my lesson, I have a sister exactly in your age, and I do know that, whatever the thing I did, was wrong! It’s completely on me. But in other hand you’re the first girl that I actually asked out! I did have crush on many types of lady friends, some of them are my age, some of them are one or two years younger than you! Even though I feel bad about asking you out, at the same time I feel happy that I came forward to do something that I never did before, I’m glad it was you! I think that’s why I can’t keep you out from my head! It’s okay that’s not your fault by any means.
Yes! I need to keep you out from my mind! I don’t know about you but that’s not an easy thing for me, but I have to do it. This is like that” AND gate” both inputs should be “true” to get the result. Holding on to something that never having any response, should see an end. I’m not angry (I can’t get angry, even if I want, I think it is a big weakness) about this I’m not even hate you. I’m doing lots of mistakes I did even more in my life, this is no mistake, if this is one! This will be the most beautiful mistake I’ve ever done!
About that matter with your eyes, it was okay for me on the day one, and it is still okay to me, and I did some searching about that matter, yes! there are some problems in this society, people’s opinion is rather different from mine, but it’s okay. Just wondering if you made that “no” decision based only on this thing! , you better be a goddess! later I realized that you weren’t thinking about yourself only, I cannot understand you on this point, but any way the reason why, I chose you, that I thought you can be my “focus point” I was looking for someone that I can hold on to, I’m destined to have intelligent enemies, I thought you can be my partner to face them, these are all selfish thinking but, nothing bad in it, just think about it, how can I ignore someone that can be the best part of me, my entire life. Then again it’s okay! I just want to let you go! You just like a wild horse, to see the true beauty of it, the horse should be left alone! Nature has its own ways to bounce back these kind of situations I shall leave this to the nature.